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hope December 31, 2008

Filed under: thoughts — mrswade @ 9:52 am

So, I didn’t really start this blog for this purpose, because writing doesn’t usually help me process things.  I think this time writing will help.

I was driving home after dropping Jake off at work at 6 this morning and listening to the radio.  Two songs came on that sparked my thoughts.

The first’s lyrics went like this:

The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
It could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Now when I read it I think it must be about a dating couple and not a married couple.  But still I can’t help but to be saddened by it.  I can’t imagine if all Jake and I’s marriage held on to was emotions.  This guy is going to, or hoping to fall for this girl over again because all they have are feelings.  If all they have is feelings, there really isn’t a point in falling for her again.  I think that is why so many marriages fail, people rely on nothing more than feelings to get them through.  Well I know from experience, and if what all the older married couples say is true, feelings aren’t going to get you anywhere.  If I always relied on feelings with my relationship with Jake, we would not be married right now and we probably would have broken up over a year ago.  There is so much more to relationships than feelings.  

I was trying to think of what that was in the car so I could sound really deep when I wrote this, but this is where the processing is going to come in.  I know you need commitment, if there is no commitment, there is nothing.  I know you need grace and forgiveness because the only problems with relationships are the people and their sin and all the messed up things they do.  Without grace and forgiveness I would never be able stay married to Jake and he would for sure leave me.  

But there has to be a reason why some marriages have these things and some don’t.  Really, all I can come up with is amazing morality and will power, or Jesus.  I can’t really believe that amazing morality and will power will get you very far, if all you have is that, where is the “why”?  Why commit to someone, give them grace and forgive them time after time after time?  I guess because it’s the “right” thing to do, but I still don’t have a “why”.  Why do that if you could just leave that person for someone who could make you happier.  Because if you don’t do these things consistently, every day, it’s going to “wear you thin down to the core.”  I know the only way I can do those things is because of Jesus, because he is committed to me and gives me grace and forgiveness every minute of every day, and he’s God, he doesn’t exactly have to do that.  So if I get it and don’t deserve it, who am I to deny my husband those same things?  That’s the only way I can see a marriage working.  Our relationships should be based on Jesus, otherwise they’re just based and feelings and that can’t work.

I’m sure I have much more to develop on all that, but that’s what I got for now.  And I’m too distracted no to start thinking about the other song….maybe later.

Well, I have another thought.  I wish my life and my marriage screamed this.  I wish that people could look at my life and be like, “Jesus is why she’s like that, that is the only way she could have so much hope.”  Because I do have hope, I have hope that can ONLY come from Jesus.  And I really want everyone else to have that too, I don’t know how anyone lives life without it, life would be pointless, and so so dark.  I just wish I had some way to express it to people, or that I was better at expressing it…

Ok, now I’m really done…not done thinking…just done typing it out…

p.s. I didn’t read back through this at all, so if it doesn’t make sense, that’s probably why.

p.p.s. I really didn’t want to post this because only posting recipes makes me way less vulnerable, but maybe this could help somebody or somebody who reads it might have good feed back for me…so I posted anyway…


January meal plan December 30, 2008

Filed under: home,Recipes — mrswade @ 3:34 pm

So, I don’t want to post recipes before I have previewed them, but I am SO excited for this months (well, at least the first half of the month) meal plan

For Jake’s birthday (which we are celebrating on the 1st) I am making Creaming Pistachio Pesto over whole Wheat Pasta with roasted red potatoes, we are drinking Chianti Classico which I brought back from Italy in May.  We will also be having roasted garlic artisan bread and for desert, wine-soaked peaches with ice cream.  I am SO excited!

Next we have Waikiki Meatballs (from Cherise) and rice, Beer can roasted chicken with Cheesy Chili Lime potato wedges, Bacon and Caramelized Onion Chowder with green beans, Spaghetti with home-made sauce and garlic bread.

yummy yummy 😀


little irony December 17, 2008

Filed under: Random,thoughts — mrswade @ 12:26 pm

So, I thought I had two funny observations from yesterday but I can only think of 1.  I was in Fred Meyer and was walking past all the aisles.  There, in the “personal aisle”, looking at condoms, was a young man…holding a young baby.  I couldn’t help but laugh to myself and think “better luck next time.”

anyway, if I think of the other thing I’ll post it later


it’s the little things

Filed under: home,thoughts — mrswade @ 12:23 pm
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so…I wrote this a while ago and just realized that it didn’t post, sad…here it is anway

Jake and I hang our loofas on the same hook in the shower.  A couple weeks after we got married we were showering and he said “I always make sure your loofa is on top, so that you never have to deal with taking mine off, taking yours off and then putting mine back on (the hook).”  Then I realized I really had always just been able to take off my loofa, it was never under his.  Not that taking off his loofa and putting it back on is any sort of hassle or would even bother me, but I just thought it was so sweet that he would think to do such a small thing for me.  I try to do the same for him, but I’m not as good at it as he is.

Small thing number two:  We had a guest staying at our house so we actually made our bed while she was there so it didn’t look so  bad.  I normally am anti-bed-making.  I don’t understand why you should make the bed if you’re just going to get in and mess it up again.  But I realized while our friend was staying with us how much I liked getting into a made bed.  I flippantly said “I think I really like getting into a made bed” one night.  I then realized a couple nights later that every night since I said that, the bed had been made.  Jake went into the room at some point after he got home from work and made the bed for me.

I have such a sweet husband, I feel so honored and blessed to be his wife.  I thank God for his little, special ways of showing me he loves me 😀


Homemade Tomato Soup December 16, 2008

Filed under: frugal,Recipes — mrswade @ 9:40 am
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  • 4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) butter
  • 2 tablespoons olive oil
  • 1 medium onion, chopped
  • Coarse salt and ground pepper
  • 1/4 cup all-purpose flour
  • 3 tablespoons tomato paste
  • 2 sprigs fresh thyme (or 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme)
  • 2 cans (14 1/2 ounces each) reduced-sodium chicken broth
  • 2 cans (28 ounces each) whole peeled tomatoes in juice (with basil if available


  1. In a 5-quart saucepan or Dutch oven, melt butter over medium heat; add oil and onion, and season with salt and pepper. Cook until onion is translucent, about 5 minutes. Stir in flour and tomato paste; cook 1 minute.
  2. To saucepan, add thyme, broth, and tomatoes, breaking up tomatoes with your fingers. Bring to a boil; reduce heat and simmer, 30 minutes. (Remove thyme sprigs before blending.)
  3. Using an immersion blender, puree soup in pot, leaving a fair amount of the tomatoes in chunks. Or, working in several batches, puree half (5 cups) of the soup in a conventional blender until smooth; return to pot. Season with salt and pepper. Serve immediately, or let cool to room temperature before dividing among airtight containers (leaving 1 inch of space at the top) and freezing.



Michelle’s Notes

  • I used large cans of diced tomatoes so I didn’t have to break them up, it worked really well
  • I didn’t have fresh or dried thyme so I sprinkled in Italian seasoning and extra basil
  • I wish I had an immersion blender, but I don’t, so I scooped up about 5 cups/half the soup-ish and stuck in it a blender and blended it till it was smooth
  • I served it will grilled cheese 🙂 yummy! I think Bisquick biscuits would be really good with it too.

SNOW December 14, 2008

Filed under: Random — mrswade @ 5:11 pm

too bad it doesn’t stick 😦



Roast Chicken December 9, 2008

Filed under: Recipes — mrswade @ 12:18 pm

I roast my first chicken the other day, it was VERY good.

Inside the chicken I put chunks of lemon, a sprig of fresh rosemary and a few cloves of garlic. 


I then rubbed butter with dried rosemary and a little dijon mustard all over underneath the skin of the chicken.

img_2407I roasted for 2 hours at 350 (last half hour I turned it down to 325 because the skin was getting very crunchy).  It turned out beautifully!  Very juicy and tender!  (now I just need to learn how to make gravy!  I can’t seem to get it right)


I served my chicken with garlic mashed potatoes and a raspberry vinaigrette salad!

Garlic Mashed potatoes

  • boil potatoes and a few cloves of garlic until potatoes can easily be pierced with a fork
  • drain potatoes and garlic in colander, add back to pot
  • saute a few crushed garlic cloves in olive oil until soft (not crunchy) in a pan
  • add garlic and olive oil to potatoes
  • add milk and butter to potatoes until smooth consistency
  • Mash them all together and add some grated parmesan cheese if you would like

Salad Ingredients

  • spinach
  • berries or sliced apple or pear
  • nuts (cashews, almonds, walnuts or hazelnuts)
  • cheese (blue or feta)
  • raspberry vinaigrette 


and of course…happy husband img_2412🙂